Making Love Out of Nothing At All
So, it seems like blogging has become a monthly affair. Ha ha!
Anyway, just returned from a really difficult worship practice at Hsia Pin's place. The songs did not really take off and I was sleepy! Sometimes I just feel that we need to have greater faith in ourselves. I know, we are to trust in God and not depend on our own strength. But God uses His servants and I just feel that some of us in church are so limited by our negative self esteem. That has probably kept us from experiencing the full measure of God's mercy and grace.
I really hope that the youth in church will embrace everything with a CAN DO attitude!
It's the last week of the term and I am glad that I made it! Contrary to popular belief, the school did not manage to sack me! Ha ha. In fact, I got offered another week in Term 3. It's been fun (seriously) and I'm definitely gonna miss the hilarious antics of my students. And it's really cool that with these positive experiences that I have gained, I am going for an interview with MOE next week. So i'm still taking each day as it comes and trusting that everything is in God's hands.
Into Something Beautiful
Dear God,
Thanks for everything that I have been blessed with!
Thanks for making me me!
Thanks for the family I have!
Thanks for friends!
Most of all, thanks for loving me!
Here I Am...
So I am here once again. For those who have been checking this space, I do apologise for the relative lack of activity.
It's actually been a relatively peaceful 2008 till now. And I am glad because I believe God is using the current circumstances I am in to continue moulding and shaping me. I personally feel that God is really using this situation to test me. He has made me realise that I need to really break out of the pattern that is my reaction to rejection/ hurt/ disappointment. I need to be sure of what needs to be done and do it. I need to be firm when dealing with certain issues. I need to speak truth into situations when the need arises.
Basically, it's all about being real and upfront once again. And I really see that God intends us to be people who are upfront about issues, who dare to put themselves in unfavourable positions. So to just sum up the few things God has been revealing to me lately:
- Deal with issues quickly. Say what needs to be said and do not hide stuff under the pretence of being nice.
- Be compassionate to others' situations.
- Be interested in others as they are also God's beloved.
- Have faith that God can work miraculous things through me.
Year of the Rat!
So this blog lives! Actually I feel kinda obliged to post regularly since I am linked via the Allegiance Blog.
Anyway, 2008 has been great thus far. I am having a rewarding time teaching in RI. Interacting with my students has made me realise how much I have grown over the years and I am really thankful for all that I have been able to learn. Teaching is fun and I guess being myself whilst I am a teacher really works. I have had no problems with my students as of yet and I believe it is because I choose to be real. I pray for wisdom whilst dealing with the slower students and recognise that Secondary 3 is really a year where some people get really angsty. I hope that I can be an influence to my students. I just want to show them that it is important to just enjoy what life has to offer. =D
I am also involved with 60th at the moment. It has been fun doing up the Drill Syllabus and helping out with AQ 08. The Youth Group is taking off to a good start. I really pray that God will continue to fuel the passion in each and every one of our hearts.
2008!
Ah well, 2007 has gone and we are now in the year 2008! To be honest, 2007 was a truly amazing year and I have so much to be thankful for. I began 2007 feeling overwhelmed by the challenges that were ahead of me, all because I was 42 SAR's BSO! So just to put everything in perspective, there was BMS, ATEC, my platoon dudes to deal with and who can forget my favourite Signal Warrant!
I really felt the grace of God as He saw me through all the challenges and obstacles and blessed me with successes even though there were times I truly felt I was a NOOB! There were those hopeless BMS tests that turned out for good and those ATEC 1 Training Sessions that turned out well even though I was quite clueless as to what was going on at the beginning. Outside of Army, I am also thankful for the Youth Group sessions we had. The few sessions I led turned out well even though I took so little time to prepare. There was also the last minute assignment to lead carolling. And Carolling 2007 was a huge success if you ask me.
So while I thank God for helping me through the eventful year, I am also thankful to and for many wonderful people!
My Family! I really appreciate them for tolerating my nonsense, my exasperated looks and responses, my absence from home and for always listening to my grouses with an understanding and non-judgemental attitude.
My SOCC Buds! I am truly thankful for them especially Navin, Wee Leong, Yong Meng, Zhong Qin, Han Yang, Matthew, Wei Liang, Peiyi and Kenny. They kept me sane by giving me an outlet for sharing my frustrations and problems. It's truly amazing how we have kept in touch throughout the year.
My JC Classmates! I am truly blessed to have this group of friends who love me for who I am. And it was painful losing Ring but we think of him constantly and are more determined not to take each other for granted.
My 42 SAR Buds! To Jimmy, Joseph, Johny, Eugene and Yuan Wei, I truly love each and every single one of you. Thanks for all the encouragement throughout 2007. I really enjoyed your company and presence. I wouldn't have made it if not for each and every single one of you.
And with a full year ahead of me, I am embracing every challenge and experience that is to come, with the faith that God will truly work everything out for my good.
